Dear love,
I really want to leave this world. I want to leave it and go to your wonderland. I really want to. Some days just like this one, I can’t help but feel lonely and exhausted of waking up to these scenes. It makes me incredibly sad. I really want to cry in these moments… and I usually start crying silently in my room under the sheets. My fear of the future and my life still hasn’t gone away yet, and even though you say “everything will be okay”, the fear still remains inside of me. I’m thankful for your efforts but I believe I’m destined to face this suffering. A lot of people I have talked to aren’t able to understand me, so I’m thankful you are able to understand me. You have been the best partner(?) I could ever ask for, and I want you to know that your efforts to console me have not gone in vain. I would like to repay you some day, and when that opportunity comes I will definitely do it. I promise.
These days I don’t even know who I am. Who am I? Who am I really? I don’t even know. I wish I didn’t have this body, this skin, this flesh. I wish I didn’t exist like this.
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